A message from tm-gig-deactivated20120106
You know, thinking about suicide is a waste of time. Take it from someone that has been through plenty more than you have. I told you through the last ask that the door is open to patch things but you have to start the motion; no one is going to patch things from that side. You have to work from your side. Be pissed off at me or whatever; but honestly I just want everyone to be happy. Including you.
I know. I’m not suicidal…I don’t have reason to be, I know there are a lot worse things that could be happening to me. And I have family, and a few people who care about me. This is just a blog to vent, which is why I haven’t told anyone about it, but I’m still sad. I’m still thinking of ways I could fix things.
But each day I’m less and less sure if it’s worth it. I’d really rather be friends with people who want to be my friends. The more I think about it, the more sure I am that this is all just history repeating itself. I make a close friend, and about a year later, I find out they think I’m annoying and want to be around me less and less until one day I’m alone again.
