what kind of friend pushes a friend away?

Just because she made mistakes.

Sure, they were bad.

Like, the most horrible mistakes someone could make.

But this is coming from someone who doesn’t know any better.

Who had no prior knowledge to help her make the right decision.

Who was clouded by emotions and being scared…

Just………isn’t that what friends are there for?

To…forgive?

The ones…who hold you, and understand your regret, and that it wasn’t your intention to hurt anyone….who understands that you just want to do the right thing from then on….and then they stick by your side so you won’t be lonely?

I just…I thought she was my friend. I really thought she was. I thought that if I could just let her know that I realize my mistakes, and that I’m doing all I know how to fix it as best as possible, that she’d let me back in.

But she closed it off…

…..either she was never a friend in the first place…

or I really am the most selfish, horrible, scum on the planet, and should disappear forever.

Because after all, no one is around anymore to miss me.