…just….

…a lot lonelier. My best friend and I aren’t really on happy terms right now…we only see each other when it’s necessary/involving the group.

I sort of lost my stay-up-until-4am-doing-homework-and-laughing-about-corgis buddy….at least, in that sense. Our conversations will probably be a lot less…animated…now that we decided to end things and just be friends…rather reluctantly, I’d add.

And well…the one I love…I’m sure I love him, but we don’t have many random, meaningless conversations. Which makes them a lot less frequent…and….I don’t know.

I don’t know what I’m doing anymore.

I think I want to just live in hiding this winter. Like hibernation.