the 3 followers I have gained are a bit in the same boat that I am. I wonder if all of you feel the same as me. Fed up with being told to stop writing  sad things. That I should wake up and see that I have friends that care.

Well sure. I have friends. But a best friend, I think I’ve lost.

Masa is the only one who forgives me regardless of what I’ve done.

I go to him and tell him right away that I’ve done something bad, that I’ve wronged him. And how sorry I am and I don’t expect him to forgive me, but he does. He tells me I’m stupid, that everyone makes mistakes, and that I’ll learn from him. He’s never mad at me. He’s never been mad at me. I says he’ll always love me.

I should be happy right?

But I can’t just live with one person my entire life. I need to be surrounded by people. It’s just the sort of person I am. Maybe a lot of people feel the same way…