November 2011
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tm-gig-deactivated20120106 asked: I don't like sucking dicks.
Anonymous asked: fuck you really overreact
Anonymous asked: donst seem like youve really come to terms wiht yourself if your still bitching about stuff
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Everyone in the group besides DJ
Can go suck a dick.
If you won’t even acknowledge me, then this is far past what it used to be.
It’s your own goddamn problem.
Honestly, the only true victim here is him.
And we’re back to being friends, as if none of it happened.
And then here you guys are, being total dicks.
No.
No I’m not going to take the blame for this one. I’ve been the...
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One of my favorite things-
‘Stealing’ one of your boyfriend’s article of clothing, like a shirt or pants.
It just smells like delicious laundry, but not MY delicious laundry…..foreign laundry from a sexy land of good-smelling-boy.
=o=
I don't care if changing my relationship status...
It’s about time I started standing by my decisions.
I love who I love, and I shouldn’t care who knows it.
tm-gig-deactivated20120106 asked: Well Amie; if that is going to be better for you then I think that is what you should do. Your own happiness should be the most important thing for you. I hope that everything will work out well in the end for you and I am sure that it will. And your car sounds nice. I hope that it will be a cheap easy fix.
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Who needs friends
When you have something inanimate to cradle with love?
I’m picking up a red ‘95 Miata this Saturday for 800$.
Masa is going to help me fix the head gasket (and if it’s hopeless, talk to one of his many car buddies for someone who has a miata engine lying around).
I’ll have about 400$ after everything to spend on a top, possibly tires, interior things, etc.
But...
tm-gig-deactivated20120106 asked: You know, thinking about suicide is a waste of time. Take it from someone that has been through plenty more than you have. I told you through the last ask that the door is open to patch things but you have to start the motion; no one is going to patch things from that side. You have to work from your side. Be pissed off at me or whatever; but honestly I just want everyone to be happy. Including...
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"I have a great idea!"
“Let’s have an awesome weekend trip to my awesome cabin with ALL our friends there, and let’s NOT invite Amie. Because we don’t like her anymore and she isn’t our friend because we kicked her out.” -My Ex-friends.
….I’m really on that tipping point. My feelings can only get hurt so much until I really start believing no one wants me around.
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I think I get it now.
I never was her best friend.
I had just made that up, in my head.
The reason we hung out all the time was because she wanted someone to be around so that she wasn’t lonely.
But she has a boyfriend now.
And this was the perfect excuse to dump the useless baggage.
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I wonder a lot...
How long it would take people to notice if I were gone.
….probably a few weeks to a month, I think.
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I wish certain guys would stop thinking I'm so...
“The reason that isn’t happening is mostly my fault. See, I have one of those fun situations with the almost perfect girl. She is bright, she is in collage and is supposed to transfer to CSU before too long. She is kind, and is a blast to hang out with. We sat and just talked outside an anime convention for a couple hours, and I can’t remember a time i was more genuinely...
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But I mean,
what kind of friend pushes a friend away?
Just because she made mistakes.
Sure, they were bad.
Like, the most horrible mistakes someone could make.
But this is coming from someone who doesn’t know any better.
Who had no prior knowledge to help her make the right decision.
Who was clouded by emotions and being scared…
Just………isn’t that what friends are...
I don't even really care anymore...
About anything.
It’s all just…
Life is sort of pointless.
I guess I’ll just entertain myself from now on.
Since I won’t be leaving the house anymore from now on.
Dear Tumblr,
I’ve lost my friends.
And at first I was really sad.
But then I realized it’s not a loss, because I didn’t really have friends before,
so it’s just a step back to before I gained them.
…Also, now I can’t hurt anyone anymore.
It’s a little lonely…
Oh well.
Things are getting better.
I’ve stopped caring so much.
It’s so much easier to get by when you forget about being lonely and drowning yourself.
It’s pretty easy for me since I went without any friends for a long long time.
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Recently
Everyday I wonder why I’m getting out of bed.
Why I even try.
Everything I do is a mistake. Everyone is annoyed with me. Everyone is so pissed-off that I’m depressed, and it’s gotten to the point where even someone I considered my best friend is telling me to shut the fuck up and get over my stupid problems and fix my life because I fucked everything up.
…why. I...
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It's as if the only 'friends' I have
Are the kind that, when I’m down, yell at me and say “Oh-fucking-well, pick your sorry-ass up and get over it.”
…did I….miss something? Did the definition of friend change somewhere along the line, here?
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I think I'm going to move
Just. Somewhere far away.
I don’t like having people pretending they’re my friends when they really don’t even want to be around me.
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I just had the worst day.
Which sucks ass, because Halloween was my favorite holiday.
I texted Melissa twice. Not even like, within in hour. Once at like noon, and another at like 6, asking about what she was doing tonight because I didn’t have plans and no one was replying when I asked multiple times for anyone to hang out with.
Even on the group page. I was practically begging for anyone to hang out with because...
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What's a good way to punish someone?
So that they really suffer and get what they deserve?
I need to punish myself for all this.
October 2011
11 posts
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I feel like life is going to be...
…just….
…a lot lonelier. My best friend and I aren’t really on happy terms right now…we only see each other when it’s necessary/involving the group.
I sort of lost my stay-up-until-4am-doing-homework-and-laughing-about-corgis buddy….at least, in that sense. Our conversations will probably be a lot less…animated…now that we decided to end...
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I've gone and done it now...
Well, now I’m on official “just friends” terms with…..both of them.
This…makes things easier.
But not happier.
I needed to back out. I wish I could rewind the clock, but I can’t. I hope I made the right choice, though.
I really hope this is the right thing to do.
I hope I don’t regret it.
I hope everything will still be okay between us. That he will...
toprovenothing asked: I started following u. My reasoning it I ran across a post of yours tagged with depression. Not to feel sorry for you in any way. It just made me think of myself when I started tumbr. I wanted input from people, the truth and what's a better way to get the truth then from random people u don't know. I wanted to know I was not alone, that others felt this pain and depression that I was...
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Lonely & In Love: Hello Celest →
fagjesus:
Firstly this is to Celest. I can’t send messages for some reason so there ya go. I do understand how you feel. I don’t have many close friends, and very few know the person that I really am, what I feel and what I think. My boyfriend is the only one who is always there to support me, but it’s just not enough. I have no urge to be popular, not that it would be at all possible, I...
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Oh...
I guess my depression has finally pushed away my friends.
A week or so ago, he had said that he thought he might have been falling in love with me…
Now we’ve been reduced to small talk…because everything else I talk about is how I’m feeling sad, and he’s given up on trying to cheer me up.
…well I don’t blame him. I’d give up on me too….
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It looks like
the 3 followers I have gained are a bit in the same boat that I am. I wonder if all of you feel the same as me. Fed up with being told to stop writing sad things. That I should wake up and see that I have friends that care.
Well sure. I have friends. But a best friend, I think I’ve lost.
Masa is the only one who forgives me regardless of what I’ve done.
I go to him and tell him...
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Wait, what?
I have followers? I just posted those things last night….who are you people?
…and why follow me?
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It would just be nice...someone...anyone...if I...
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Sort of like freedom...
It is, in fact, nice, being able to talk about things, sad things, without having people tell you to stop, and lie about how they say they care, or whatever. Though I guess this makes it more like a journal then, if it’s all just to myself.
What’s the point, though, if no one reads this…yeah.
What’s the point. Just to vent…I guess. Is that a good enough reason...
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I don't know...
What’s the real point of Tumblr. The only people who ever really watched what I was posting were people I knew in real life. But most of those people didn’t care anyway…
There were some others, but I pushed them away. They were male…I never trusted guys anyway. I always saw through their ulterior motives…after all, it’s not like they followed me for any reason...